today..

I've felt that very deep, soulful connection with someone who unfortunately doesn't see it at all i've finally learned after 3 and half years of knowing ((( i thought he felt it too, it seemed that way, our lives coming together, however, i was mistaken))) - its led me to put barriers up and resist what i feel, which is sometimes confusing and painful for me - the only conclusion i can see at this point in time, is that Spirit has brought us together in this life for me to be a helper, but to keep my emotional distance while he works some things out; perhaps if we meet in a future lifetime he will be ready for the blissful, loving, non-judgemental connection i see us in ? -- i've asked for guidance so many times to help me while i learn this -- i've been very close to just ending the friendship lately because its so painful, but then i have some hours of peace/understanding/togetherness within it which seem to make the pain "worthwhile"..