Thanks for reminding me

Reminding  me of my limitations, and why i'm not desirable and lovable.
And when i slip up, and temporarily think you care for me, thanks for slapping me in the face and reminding me how repulsive i am

How to Undo nearly 4 years of facebook posts

first you need to be awake in the middle of the night wondering what the hell you thought you were doing falling for this stupid illusion

and then you go through your own timeline and delete every "like" and every "post" and every "comment" you ever posted on your fake friends profile the last 4 years

this is going to take several of these nights

so mad at myself for being such an idiot and falling for your lies

Damn, i'm sick of these stinky boots....

yeah, its a jim morrison quote... jim and i are kindred spirits, who  feel too much and hurt too much, and sometimes drink to escape the pain for an evening

right now i am feeling too much, and hurting too much

i am sick of giving to someone who doesn't care about my feelings
someone who pretends to be my friend, but when it comes down to it, really isn't

lies to me, and discards me repeatedly
and i keep forgiving...and keep forgiving....like a goddam idiot

i can't trust you anymore, but i do anyway

damn Mother Theresa and her "Do it anyway" thing...
damn these people who say you attract what you put out there!
i gave you unconditional love, no control, no ownership, no bullshit
i've given you a home, a firm foundation, space to flourish, food, clothes, art supplies, beer

and my busted up, bruised heart


you think that i think you're using me

that never crosses my mind -- i thought i was giving you a home, a family, a firm foundation, friendship, love

but you think you're using me
so maybe you are